What happened to you??!!??
No, we didn’t fall off the face of the planet, even though I think it may have been emotionally easier…just kidding!
So much has happened over the last year and without bombarding you or myself to re-tell it all at once I will gradually share bits and pieces of our life as we have now come to know it. I don’t know why and won’t question it, but I knew, when I was ready to share and to blog about it, I would…I just didn’t think it would happen at 3 in the morning on a Tuesday. Guess that’s just they way it goes.
In brief, it is 3am and while the rest of the world sleeps, I am awake. I was woken by Knoah saying “Momma…” I simply asked him “Do you have to pee?” He responded with “Yes!” Ok then…it’s to the bathroom we go.
One of the things that I was concerned with when we had Knoah, was how my marriage would fair. I never blogged about it and I will find the article I read, but it basically stated that nearly half the marriages that had a child introduced to the family with a disability will fail. It was never really specific as to the reason why, but it basically summoned it up to stress, the financial issue and other reasons. We all know, if you had been a regular follower of Knoah’s ARC that, financially, we were never in the best position. When Will lost his job, everything else took a downward spiral into the great abyss of hell…
Making the decision to give up the house, while painful, was the least of my concerns. We had a home we could make our own and while it wasn’t my grand Victorian, it would do. Things never turn out the way we ever envision them too, hence the original blog name “What Is Normal?”
In short, although not officially signed yet, on June 23, 2010, Will and I attended our final divorce proceedings.
I will share my reasons for asking for the divorce, as I see it. I will share Will’s blog and the way he sees it and I will share how the children are handling it. The good, the bad and the dirty.
So, there you have it. I stopped blogging during that time because I know how I am. Blogging is a way for me to vent, share my feelings and make sense of my surrounding. I’m not going to say I kept it bottled up, I just didn’t share it here. I have a wonderful support network consisting of people around me, both near and afar! Although, I don’t routinely call on them when I have a problem, they know when I need them.
I don’t really know right now what else to say. I guess just that…I think that’s a fair start, don’t you?